Sorry folks! I started a new job and had some health issues, but I'm back. Sitting here waiting on a slice of pizza at a new pizza shop. I'm thinking about how good of a friend I am. I haven't seen some of my friends in months and some in years. I feel like life seems to take over and we all tend to put our relationships on the back burner. Do I miss them, ABSOLUTELY!! Am I guilty of being complacent? YES; Am I guilty of being lazy when it comes to making plans or reaching out? YES; Am I being antisocial? YES! I'm lucky to keep my head above water with everyday things. It feels like the same monotonous thing everyday too. I get up, feed the dogs, get ready for work, and go to work. Sometimes slipping in a chore or two. I come home fix dinner, feed the dogs, squeeze in some time for more chores, jump in the hot tub for 10 minutes of relax time, and hop into bed to start the whole thing over again. I'm probably missing a few things in between but you get the big picture. As I've gotten older, I just don't want to go anywhere and I just want to be at home. Maybe sit on the porch for a few minutes or finish a project that has been sitting in the same spot for months. It seems like there is always something to do when you own a home. I guess adulting can be too much most of the time. I understand some people put the house work aside and make time to see friends, family and see the world. I just haven't figured out how to do that. I'm hoping from all my hard work (hubby included) that we can enjoy life sooner than later. My count down for my home to be paid off is in the single digits, my credit is amazing and my debt is minimal. One day WE will be able to retire and enjoy the fruits of our labor. Some days it scares me that my dad died at 50 and I may not be able to enjoy those fruits! ..or I see people who retire and a few years later their family has laid them to rest. They enjoyed none of their retirement. I've totally went off topic, I started out talking about my relationships with friends and ....look a squirrel moment happened! Sooooo, my friendships and familiships (I've made that word up) have suffered from my lack of putting them first. Yes, my health did put a damper on making plans but so has my choices . Not feeling well kept me from sharing in so many memories and experiences with friends and family but so did my lack of wanting to. Does that make me a bad person. Sometimes it does! Sometimes I choose to be home with my pups. Sometimes I choose to be a bum! After 6 days of adulting all I want to do is relax. I could have easily made a better effort or changed days and tried again. I know my friends and family still love me and they definitely understand. They too have those days where they choose to stay at home. The older we get the more sitting on the couch or lying in bed watching Netflix with snacks sounds so much better than getting dressed to go out. I can't remember the last time I did that. I think I have only driven after dark maybe a handful of times in the last year. That is pathetic! The one positive is that all this distance between family and friends makes the time we do spend together a wonderful memory. When I see my bestie, her and I act as if no time has passed and we jump right into where we left off. That is how you know you have a great best friend. When you call her because you need her to help plan a party, you need her to go with you to a funeral, or you just need to cry on her shoulder, she is ALWAYS there. Everyone should have one of her, or two or three! Some of us have family like that too. I don't think there is one thing that I do not run past my mom before I do it or when I do it and I need advice on how to fix it. My husband is also good at being my go to for everything. Good days and bad days, new ideas, crraazy experiences I send him a message. He always sends me a message making sure I am feeling good for the day or to tell me to have a good day. He doesn't miss too many days of sending me those loving messages. My sister, because we both have crazy schedules, sends me a simple text to check in and make sure I am OK. We both make sure we each are still making waves, sinking battleships, mending fences or putting lipstick on a pig. We also know we love each other, we are each others biggest supporters and always here for each other. Well, my pizza is done and it was yummy! What I have learned for myself is that i should have preordered the pizza and that I will be back, minus them forgetting my pepperoni! We all make mistakes and forget to finish the task at hand. Their sicilian pizza is amazing and I should have invited a friend to share with me. Just joking, I learned that I need to make a better effort to make plans and keep them with my friends and family. Atleast once a week send them a text to remind them that I am thinking of them. I do have a wonderful friend that does that quite often for me. I need to reciprocate those beautiful gestures. I need to let her know that it truly makes my day when she does! I do pray for each and everyone of them every night before I go to sleep and I hope that they all know how much they mean to me and that I love them. I may not be the best friend, sister, wife or daughter that I should be but they will always be first in my life and if push came to shove I'd drop everything to be there and I know they would do the same for me. Reach out to your friends and family. Make sure they know you're just a phone call away. Just another daily dose of T.